Welcome
✎_____ NB | He/Him~They/Them | 26 yrs | ISFP | Pisces ______
👋 Hi, I'm Sam, or Strider, or whatever you wanna call me honestly.
I made this as an easier to edit place to put my kin memories and stuff, if you're here I probably linked it in a discord server. or something.Some pages have a lot of info on them, don't feel obligated to read all of it unless you really want to, I guess.
Complete list of kins, text only- Dave Strider (Homestuck)
- Tyzias Entykk (Hiveswap)
- Dirk Strider (Homestuck)
- Boldir Lamati (Hiveswap)
- The Psiioniic (Homestuck)
- Barzum & Baizli Soleil (Hiveswap)
- Aizawa Shouta/Eraserhead (BnHA)
- Hizashi Yamada/Present Mic (BNHA)
- Tamaki Amajiki (BNHA)
- Hawks (BNHA)
- Touya Todoroki (BNHA)
- Newt Scamander (Fantastic Beasts)
- Harry Potter (Harry Potter)
- Sal Fisher (Sally Face)
- Legoshi (Beastars)
- Angel!Crowley/Raphael (Good Omens)
- Peter Parker/Spider-man (MCU/PS4)
- Unnamed Falmer (Snow Elf) (The Elder Scrolls)
- James Wilson (House M.D.)
- Ginko (Mushi-Shi)
- Blue Pearl (Steven Universe)
- Bohdi Rook (Star Wars/Rogue One)
- Cal Kestis (Star Wars Jedi: Fallen Order)
- Yelena Belova (MCU)
- Marina (Splatoon 2)Questioning
Characters who I think I may be kin with but am not sure of yet.- Link (LoZ Breath of the Wild)
- Angel Devil (Chainsaw Man)Synpaths
Characters I am not kin with, but generally feel relatable to me in some way.Cinnabar (Land of the Lustrous)
Lapis Lazuli (Steven Universe)
Harleen Quinzel (Suicide Squad)
Etihw (The Gray Garden)
Elliot Alderson (Mr Robot)
Alfendi Layton (Layton Brothers Mystery Room)
Chixie Roixmr (Hiveswap)
Kaneki Ken (Tokyo Ghoul)Comfort Characters
I'm not kin with these characters, but they are related to my kins/synpaths in some way or otherwise give me a lot of feelings.Sapphire (Steven Universe)
Garnet (Steven Universe)
Porpentina Goldstein (Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them)
Alfred F. Jones (Hetalia)
Florence Sich (Layton Brothers Mystery Room)
Hideyoshi Nagachika (Tokyo Ghoul)
Stelsa Sezyat (Hiveswap)
Karkat Vantas (Homestuck)
Nepeta Leijon (Homestuck)
Jade Harley (Homestuck)
Daraya Jonjet (Homestuck)
Jadeblood trolls, in general (Homestuck/Hiveswap)
Larry Johnson (Sally Face)
Blue Diamond (Steven Universe)
Present Mic (BNHA)
Gregory House (House M.D.)
M.J. (Spider-man/MCU)
Ned Leeds (Spider-man/MCU)Otherkin Types
Just... Non-fiction kintypes? Theriotypes? Whatever.*Lykoi Cat, Fox, House Sparrow, Glitch, Unspecified Ethereal Being
Buttons lead to pages containing more information/memories about the kin they're labeled with.
Some of them are still a work in progress.
N/A
i have memories i'm just a lazy ass so i'll type them up later
i want every present mic kinnie to know i love and support you tho
General Information
- My dad was the #2 hero prior to All Might and Endeavor rising to the top. He had some sort of crow/raven quirk and basically looked like a humanoid bird. He could mimic sounds among other things, and I think he could also fly.
- My mom was a brunette with a telekinetic quirk, though some parts of her family had red hair which is presumably how I managed to grow red wings. My hair was originally brunette as well, but I bleached it.Timeline Memories
- I was born with my wings, but for the first few years of my life they were just small fluffy things and didn't seem to be growing at the same rate as me, leading my father (who was similar to endeavor in that he wanted his offspring to match/surpass him as a hero) to believe my quirk would be useless. It wasn't until around the time I turned 5 that the part of my quirk that allowed me to control my feathers activated, and he "realised" I wasn't actually as useless as he assumed.
- My father was adamant about me getting into UA, and even had a letter of recommendation for me to be accepted in, but around age 15 before I entered highschool, I ran away from home and applied to another, smaller school (possibly Ketsubutsu), in hopes he wouldn't find me.
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General Information
- I was not Dabi and I don't think Dabi existed in this TL, which makes me assume if things had gone a bit differently I could have potentially become Dabi.
- Fuyumi's quirk was Steam, often times in moments of emotion she'd randomly emit steam, she probably could have weaponized it if she'd wanted to become a hero but instead she mostly utilized her quirk for cooking and other household chores.
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General Information
- My wand was Beech with Dragon Heartstring, about 9 1/2 or 10 inches, and moderately flexible ("springy"?)Timeline Memories
School Years
- I kept my hufflepuff scarf and wore it even after I was expelled from school. I have a memory of pulling it around my neck in a loose knot as I stepped out onto the school grounds, in the cold of winter. it was snowing.
- I remember Leta and I sneaking into the school kitchen for a snack. We got in trouble, but we thought it was worth it.Post-School
- I remember dumbledore made sure I got the education I needed after I was expelled. He didn't teach me himself, but he sent me the school list for my final year along with work to do, and I was able to teach myself that way.
- I basically took odd jobs for a while, helping people with things mostly related to magical creatures, which i had a great interest in. i took care to always make sure the creatures weren't harmed when I removed them from gardens or attics and the like.
- I didn't actually get the idea for the suitcase until dumbledore approached me about the book project, which I used as a chance to do more for the creatures I loved so much.
- I remember I would often let smaller creatures crawl on me or sit on my shoulders while i worked, whether it be an occamy coiled loosely around my neck or a couple baby nifflers crawling in my coat pocket or sitting on my head.Post-Book
- Tina and I moved to Paris at some point after getting married
- I remember meeting Harry by chance, I was visiting London and headed to diagon alley for supplies. I think he was out with the dursleys or somesuch and I thought it wouldn't hurt to greet him considering I'd never seen someone so famous before. I remember offhandedly mentioning the meeting to Dumbledore later and being kind of alarmed when I was told how Harry had been treated staying with those people.
#TW : :(
General Information
- I may have crushed on Larry for a hot minute, but never really... Got a chance to tell him, I didn't want to make things weird or anything, I was happy with him just being my best friend regardless though.
- We tried to start a band at one point, but i don't think it really got anywhereTimeline Memories
Pre-moving
- This was basically the last straw that caused us to move to nockfell, I can't quite remember why, but a kid at school in NJ clocked me in the face and ended up breaking my mask. I think the kid made some snide comment toward me and i tried to start a conversation, as i was wont to do, and he wasn't having it that time.
- my dad tried to insist on getting me a new mask, but i insisted it was fine and then fixed the mask myself. i was really attached to it by that point and getting a new one felt like i was basically getting a new face or something. plus, i thought my repairs to it made it more unique to me.
Post-Moving
- I do remember telling Larry the story of how my mask broke, I think he asked about it one day since it was kinda obviously a patch-up job. i specifically used the words "he clocked me right in the face" when i told the story, too
#TW : it's homestuck
Beta Timeline
Quadrants
♡ Karkat ♡
♢ Karkat ♢
♤ Also Karkat ♤General Information
- My shades weren't purely for ironic/cool purposes, i had some pretty bad light sensitivity and needed them to see, mostly in brightly lit areas
- I think I might've became Karkat's moirail at some point. And we probably vacillated between that and being actually romantically involved, but were still mostly moirails. It was a bit weird
- probably had a thing with terezi for a short time at some point? but we broke it off and remained rad friends and stuff. i can't remember the reason.
- john was kind a role model for me, i saw him as this kid that acted how he wanted and didn't care what anyone thought about it. and i wanted to be like that, too
- i didnt really like how the people in our new universe treated us like gods or something, it didnt feel right to me. like, i was just some tired kid who didnt ask for any of this shit, i'm not some kinda deity, i was just a dude who wanted to live his life and grow up and talk to his friends, i guess
- my relationship with my bro was... turbulent. i remember having almost normal interactions with him sometimes, as well as the unhealthy cryptic bullshit and brawls on the roof most people think of. it was like he couldn't decide whether or not to be a normal fucking parent. it made me feel kinda fucked up emotionally further down the line.
- for a while, i had trouble seeing dirk as anyone other than a younger "version" of my bro, since he looked so much like him/technically was him, in a sense. i remember having a feeling of nervousness in my chest when i talked to him for a while, both in the game and on earth C. i think i eventually got over it, or maybe we talked it out and that helped. i felt kinda bad about it- since he hadn't known me, it felt unfair for me to project on to him like that, but i guess it was a difficult habit to break
- i owned a pair of red crocs that were purchased ironically, but i found them so comfy i wore them around the house a lot, and even strifed with bro a few times while wearing them. i actually switched my god tier outfit's shoes out for them at some point.
- rose had contactstroll/asteroid related shit
- i became friends with nepeta, she was still alive on the asteroid when we got there, and she had freckles
- nep was a head taller than the mayor, and i was taller than nep
- feferi also had freckles
- gamzee still became sober prior to me and rose meeting up with the trolls
- equius still died to gamzee before we arrived
- feferi and eridan were alive when we arrived on the asteroid (this changes later, however)
- kanaya was already a rainbowdrinker by then but i have no idea how that happened, however i think it still involved eridan because she really did not like that dude
- i don't think sollux became half dead? or maybe he did and i never saw him once it happened. i do remember seeing him around when he was blind though.
- aradia was chill, i kinda wish i'd talked to her more
- Terezi went godtier at some point too
- tz and i had a secret handshake, i remember striking the idea to her and she basically went "wow strider that's so stupid, let's do it"Timeline Memories
Pre-Sburb
- i remember when i was around 11 or so, going up to the roof by myself because the apartment was feeling stuffy. while i was there, bro flashstepped behind me unexpectedly, and instead of retaliating i instead jumped off the roof and basically parkoured across houston until i ended up on the roof of an office building. i laid there until a cop showed up, presumably because someone saw me up there. he took me home and i remember the ending of his exchange with bro and i; "son, don't worry your dad like this again." "haha, he's my younger brother." after the cop left, bro disappeared again.
- i remember strifing with bro on the roof, he caused me to drop from the tower up there and then he flashstepped to the roof below me. my sword was above me as i fell, and it was all i could see aside from the overcast sky. i grabbed the sword when it was in reach and turned in the air, swinging it to meet with bro's when i was close enough. his sword was strong and sharp enough to literally cut though mine. my sword was split in two and i had to redirect momentum to stop from ramming myself into his sword, which ended with me stumbling when i hit the ground and rolling into the wall pretty hard. luckily i wasn't too injured, but last i saw bro just flashstepped away again without checking up on me.
- I remember sitting legs crossed on bro's futon in his room, playing some video game on the TV. I mightve just turned 13 not long ago. Bro walked up out of nowhere and reached out to ruffle my hair, but of course I put an arm up to stop him. Then he did it anyway and flashstepped the fuck out of there
- bec once teleported into my house and licked my face so abruptly my sunglasses fell off and then he just teleported away there, i can't help but feel like it was jade's version of a prankPost-Entering the Medium
- I actually saw myself die not long after entering the Medium. Some doomed version of me made a miscalculation and time-traveled into an area outside my window that didn't have anything to stand on at that particular moment in time. While I'd been staring out at my land to make sense of it, he warped in and plummeted straight downward. All I could really do in the moment was stare at him while thinking "What the fuck"
- I immediately messaged Rose something along the lines of "dude i think i just saw my life flash before my eyes," and the conversation after went kind of like, "How is that working out for you?", "fucking terribly dude take this seriously", "I'm completely serious."
- I ascended to god tier a while before rose and i attempted to blow up the green sun, but it wasn't on purpose; someone deceived me or convinced me to do something that ultimately led to it despite me not knowing what the outcome would be. I remember a vague tightness/pain in my chest as i stared at my hands, i think i may have been shot when i died on my quest bed.
- Where ever I woke when I ascended, was really bright, i remember lifting my shades to look around and having to squint really hard in the light, but it may have just been my sensitivity making everything seem bright..On the Asteroid
- I remember when I met nep on the asteroid, she was sitting in the large room with all the computers in it that the other trolls used to talk to us before. She seemed pretty sad, so I sat with her and we talked and she told me she was sad about equius and whatnot. we became good friends along with the mayor, i remember her drawing a picture of herself and equius and showing it to me at some point.
- Nep also brought up roleplaying at some point and the mayor thought it was the best thing ever
- i remember nep trying to, like, nuzzle me like a cat, it caught me off guard at first because i was Not used to physical affection but when i realised she was just being cute again i was okay with it
- feferi and eridan got into it about something, and i guess this was like... the last straw for them, because eridan ended up killing fef. and i saw the whole thing. i have no idea why i was there, but, holy shit it was brutal
- pretty sure kanaya royally fucked up eridan's day after that.
- rose and i were kind of. fucked up about this whole trolls murdering each other thing after that, but, i think we eventually... talked it out? or something? or just let it become the norm. social differences and shit. either way it was kind of absurdly jarring at first and i remember us both whispering to each other wondering if we'd made a mistake by joining them.
- nepeta explained quadrants to me and not only did i think "moirail" was pronounced "meowrail" the whole time until karkat corrected me, but i wondered if she and I could be considered moirails too. I never brought it up to her, however
- karkat actually questioned why nep and i were talking so much and i basically just told him she just wanted friends and stuff
- i was upset about something at some point while on the asteroid, i wandered up behind karkat and hugged him from behind. he freaked the fuck out in regular karkat fashion and started yelling before he realised it was me. i think he just sort of accepted it and went back to what he was doing
- i sorta, let my hair go for a while there, it grew almost to my shoulders before rose finally got fed up and cut it for me
- i once fell asleep, and found the asteroid going through my dream bubble, so i walked in and waltzed right up to my sleeping self and woke myself up because i didn't want to be asleep. i distinctly remember touching my own shoulder and feeling it on my dream self, it was really strange
- i ran into a doomed version of myself at least once in the dream bubbles, and it kinda fucked me up. i have no idea why i had such a reaction to it, i guess it had never occurred to me that the versions of myself that died actually ended up somewhere else and were still... around, sort of, but dead. it felt like looking in a mirror but what was staring back was my own mortality
- nep was reunited with equius in the dream bubbles at one point, i remember we were stepping out of the asteroid proper to see what was in the bubble we'd ended up in, and he was there. nep immediately tacklehugged him and cried, honestlyPost-Asteroid (in the alpha session)
- jaspersprite came with john and roxy from the pre-retcon timeline, and prototyped the pre-retcon nepeta, who was dead, with one of the sprites
- nepetasprite eventually became davepeta with davesprite still. and we basically had two nepetas now technically, the alive one and the sprite
- i remember, at some point when i got to talk with dirk- may have been before we enacted the plan to take care of english, i dunno, but i just lost my shit on him emotionally. generally about how bro raised me, honestly, i wasn't angry at dirk but moreso at the situation in general; i remember he seemed kind of taken aback by the outburst considering i'd been able to keep my cool up until then. i also started crying and it was kind of embarrassing honestly, but i think it was something i'd been bottling up for a while by that point, so i kinda needed to get the emotion out anyway
- I remember taking rose's hand, sometime during when we were all waiting for the final showdown or whatever, it was in a gesture of "I got your back, sis" sort of, and I remember her giving me a somewhat smug look of "I didnt expect this out of you" for some reason. I guess she didnt think it like me to actually show any kind of brotherly gesture toward her for some reason, since a lot of our relationship consisted of throwing sarcastic and deadpan remarks back at each other
[TW decapitation]
- I remember close to the end of mine and Dirk's fight with the two Jacks, having to grab his head and time travel away. It made me feel kinda fucked up, even if it was necessary and we were able to revive him afterward. I guess seeing myself die so many times I just still wasn't used to it, I actually had to step away to breathe before he was fixed up.
[/TW]On Earth C
- i remember nep and the mayor prancing around in a field on our new planet, roleplaying and just generally having a good time because we were finally out of the game
- Jade was actually able to take our old houses out of our lands and place them into Earth C, she did this for John and I, but I'm unsure if Rose or anyone else also took back their houses
- I remember, the "thanks for playing" text was actually a thing that existed in the sky. i got really pissed off about it because i felt like it was a huge fucking joke or passive aggressive jab at us by the game, and i started throwing rocks or whatever else i could get my hands on toward it, even though i had no idea if it was even a solid thing. john and jade were out there with me, but they just seemed kind of dumbfounded about my reaction, i guess neither of them had seen me actually show much emotion to that extent prior to that
- I remember laying awake on our first night on earth C, after everyone had tired out from celebrating the game being over. Rose came over to visit me, and we greeted each other and sat in silence for a while, but i think we could read each other well enough that we both knew the other was thinking the same thing. I eventually broke the silence by asking "what are we supposed to do now?" and she responded to me with "well, I suppose we just live." even though we both knew just "living" wasn't going to be an easy feat
- Karkat got jade to help him build a rough replica of his old hive, which he put right next to my apartment, jade lived close by on the other side in a little earthy hut she made for herself. it was cute.
- Karkat and I were Very still in denial about our feelings until after Jade left Earth C. I think Rose was the one who convinced me to finally talk it out with him.
- Jade and I got close and ?sort of dated? for a while, after we settled in, but she eventually decided she didn't like sitting still and became pretty scarce. i think we only really dated out of a sense that it was expected of us still, somehow, but eventually realised it didn't matter. she spent a lot of time wandering earth C, our old lands (which she miraculously was able to bring with her into the new universe...?), the rest of the universe too probably. we stayed in touch, and she still visited. i think she wasn't too used to being up close and personal with people, and by then she could be wherever she felt like being due to her space powers, so... she did her own thing
- jade used to bring back random stuff she found after she decided to go explore the universe once we'd settled on earth c. it was just. moon rocks and stuff, y'know, or weird alien plants, just literally anything she found out there and wanted to show someone later. i remember her bringing me back rocks and some strange amber thing with a dead insect in it.
- she once brought back and gave to karkat what we thought was an alien rock, but turned out to be an egg that hatched some kind of strange grub creature, which eventually pupated into a giant moth/butterfly. he kept it as a pet
- he named the moth baby. he literally called it baby vantas and it was adorably hilarious
- I eventually cleaned all/most of my bro's stuff out of his side of the apartment. and threw out a lot of my stuff as well. Dirk ended up moving into the other side of the apartment and karkat moved in with me, I think we may have made some architectural adjustments to the place at some point so that my room could be big enough for the two of us.Splintered Timeline Memories
A few memories from splintered and/or doomed timelines. These are things I remember but don't really have a full timeline to put to.
- I remember, I was running from Bec Noir, who'd found his way into our timeline sooner than we had expected. I time traveled to escape him, but I went a little too far... And the place I ended up didn't have a ground to stand on in the past I'd gone to, I guess. I wasn't godtier, so I couldn't just fly off to save myself, so I plummeted to my death. The last thing I remember is... Seeing my younger self staring back at me from a distance.
- I also remember an alternative timeline where I nearly fell into the lava, but another timeline version of myself saved me.
- I also remember watching the above memory happen from my bedroom window. Yes, I both remember my actual self nearly dying, but also remember watching it happen. Shit's fucked.
Kidswap Timeline (Dave Lalonde - Swapped Roseways)
General Information
- i had orchid colored shades and a sweater vest with an orchid colored record on it
- Mom/Roxy was my guardian, likewise Bro was Rose's, however I think John and Jade's guardians switched places with them.
- i was into cryptids and poetry and remixing old music and may have been interested in becoming a surgeon at some point
- my strife specibus was just, knives
- I was a seer of time, i could see into people's timelines to determine what would happen to them, what had already happened, whether their timeline was doomed, etc.
- roxy strider was a prince of void and she had a shirt with an orange cat on it
- john harley was an heir of space, jade egbert was a witch of breath, rose strider was a knight of light
- my land was the land of rain and clockwork (LORAC), it was always overcast and gloomy, but the clouds and water were a muted reddish-pink color. it was similar to LOHAC in that it was covered in machinery, but it was all old looking and powered by turning water wheels. i was tasked with figuring out the solution to getting the rain to turn the wheels again.Troll related
- Karkat was a peixesTimeline Memories
In the Medium
- prior to going god tier, i god my hands on a crystal ball that i used to try to look through timelines with. i wasn't very good with it at first, and one time i remember trying to find something in our timeline and being frustrated about not getting any outcome. then the crystal ball started to show me something from a different timeline, that wasn't swapped- i saw rose waving one of her needles/wands at a wall of bright light. she looks back behind herself and dave walks up, also looking back at something, before he whispers something to her and then walks past her in another direction. i don't know what the context was and also don't know if i ever found out what it was.
- i remember my mom dying, i think this is a big part of what made me go grimdark. at some point i also realised i'd been taking her and everything else in my life for granted
- i remember being able to teleport a short distance when i was grimdark, it might've been me somehow taking advantage of latent time powers thoughAlpha Session
- something happened to dirk prior to us arriving there, i think he died when everyone was trying to enter the medium. roxy had his shades.
- i remember roxy and i having a heartfelt conversation in either her land, or what used to be dirk's land. i remember crying on her shirt when we met because she was just lik my mom even if she wasn't a lalonde. she commented something about not expecting one of her first interactions with the teen version of her ancestor to be him getting tears all over her god pajamas.
Alpha Timeline
N/A (yet)
#TW : bro strider's existence
General Information
- Basically, after the game something that happened to cause everyone to be sent back to beta earth, before the game there started. The alpha kids took the places of the beta kids' respective guardians while still having their memories, I'm not sure if the beta kids retained their memories or not. I think they might've remembered later someway or another.
- Dave was afraid of me for a while for obvious reasons, and I felt like absolute shit because of it. I tried for a long time to figure out how to make him less uncomfortable with me, I think he eventually came to terms with the fact I wasn't the person he thought I was.Timeline Memories
Post-Game
- I straight up remember rummaging through my (Bro's?) clothing looking for something that wasn't khakis or a polo shirt. I whispered something like "goddamn polos" to myself, and then realised Dave was within earshot of me. He seemed kinda confused.
General Information
- We were quite literally one person with two bodies, in the sense we could even see out of the eyes of both bodies at once, our thoughts were basically one, etc.
- We eventually learned to balance this, obviously, and use it to our advantage, and were able to do things like make our senses lean moreso toward one body than the other, etc.
- While non-purples tended to steer clear of us, once we started congregating with other purples they basically accepted us as we were, calling it a miracle and stuff.
- Our lusus was a two-faced goat.
- We both only had one horn, and one pair of grub scars, strangely.
- We pupated in the same cocoon.
- As we grew older, Barzum kept their hair short, but Baizli grew it out. This was probably due to some indecisiveness on how we wanted to keep our hair styled as we got older.
- There was still some disconnect with emotions due to us having two bodies with two totally separate brains. Meaning we could essentially feel two emotions at once despite having only one mind.Timeline Memories
- Our first memory was meeting our lusus for the first time, things were disorienting due to us having not figured out how to balance our senses yet, but we both looked up at the goat and each reached out a tiny hand to touch its faces.
#TW : violence, blood, head/horn trauma (tw indicated in red below)
Alternia Timeline
Quadrants
♡ Stelsa Sezyat ♡
♢ Daraya Jonjet ♢
♤ ??? Chahut Maybe ??? ♤General Information
- I do have vague memories of how I felt about the other teals. Tagora was a bit of a pain but we also had kind of a friendly rivalry going on. Nothing like being kismesis, more of a lighter siblings-clashing kind of thing. I also found it amusing to pick at him on occasion. Tirona, I tolerated due to her being a kid who didn't really know better.
- tagora was pale-crushing on me for a while and i dont think i reciprocated, i think he got jealous of me and started waxing black for one or both of us when i became moirails with daraya
- I did love Stelsa, but... We got into spats about my less-than-legal beliefs quite a bit. I think she was only trying to look out for me, but it only seemed to add on to my stress.
- I was incredibly gender-apathetic, why do trolls even need gender anyway
- I remember I had a habit of speaking a bit slowly, especially when exhausted. my voice probably tended to drone a bit then, too. tagora in particular found it annoying when i'd talk that way, so sometimes i would... talk... as slow... as possible... just to mess with him/get on his nerves. he actually tried to charge me money for it on a few occasions.
- my mug didn't always have water/coffee in it, often times I'd just grab whatever was there on the way out of the hive when I was busy, so it would often be anything from soda, water, tea, juice, etc. i'm pretty sure stelsa would often leave things out on purpose for me to find so that I'd not be drinking sugar and caffeine all the time. sometimes people actually caught on to this and would try to guess what i was drinking.
- I remember a cat. It might have been Stelsa's, but I'm not sure. It was someone's lusus. I took naps with the cat sometimes. It was nice.
- i don't think i ever personally met him, but goddamn i was unironically attracted to marvusTimeline Memories- I remember when I found the first information on the Signless, in a book while I was in the bookhive getting information for school assignments. I was still rather young at the time and had only recently started schoolfeeding at that point, but it was already wearing me thin with how much work we were given. But reading about the signless sparked something in me that made me want to read more. I felt a pleasant spark of interest in it that I hadn't felt about anything in a long while.
[TW graphic descriptions of head/horn trauma, violence, and blood]
- i remember, i may have pissed off or said the wrong thing around the wrong person, a group of highbloods (purples, mostly, but maybe 1 or 2 indigo or cerulean too) took me by force and cut my horns short and sanded them flat. prior to this my horns had actually been a bit longer and pointed. they had a core in the middle that actually began to bleed teal once the horns were cut. i think it happened close to/soon after when i first discovered mentions of the signless in the books i was studying. i remember actually having to bandage my horns for a while after so they could heal over. it was actually pretty painful.
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- I remember sitting on Stelsa's couch in her hive, dozing off against her shoulder while she sat writing something or other. The lights were a tad dim and I think she'd been helping me out with a project during her small amount of free time, and I was so tired I ended up dozing off while she was trying to write up notes for me.
- I remember taking a nap on a rug in tagora's hive. we had a study session and were taking a break, and i was super tired, so i just kinda laid down and decided to take a nap.
- I remember visiting tagora's hive and him asking me to go to a party with him, presumably at elwurd's place. I asked him why and he said something like "blueblood parties always end in someone getting sued" and i remember galekh being there and getting super offended by the comment.
- I met Daraya when Tagora dragged me to the party, tagora was doing his thing soliciting people for legal help or whatever. i think daraya was standing off to the side looking like she regretted being there or something, so i stood out of the way next to her and we got to talking, i guess.
- I met Wanshi once, when she followed Daraya out of the caverns on a day we were going to meet at the bookhive. I think this was just before we became "officially" moirails. Wanshi was the only jade at this point that knew we were friends.
- I remember Daraya telling me about how lanque was soon to be sent away, and how she looked to him like a big brother of sorts (we didn't use that word, but y'know), that was part of why she rejected her place as a jadeblood so much, because it meant she had to be separated from her friends and people she grew up with eventually
- Daraya took me to meet Lanque. i think she became tired of hiding our moiraillegiance and wanted to tell the other jades, but was afraid of the outcome. she trusted lanque, so decided to tell him first. lanque was super judgmental of me at first due to not wanting daraya to mix into the wrong crowd.
Beforus Timeline
General Information
- I have a vague memory of an indigo blooded troll. I think they dressed nice. Maybe it was Galehk? I have no idea
- i remember having to hide my studies of the old rebellion from this indigoblood in particular
- I had chronic insomnia and it was the worst
- I absolutely did not want to be culled, I was legitimately interested in law and wanted to pursue it but my sleep patterns and having to pretend to be fine made it quite hard for me
- i gained an interest in reading due to my bouts of sleeplessness making me need something to do during the hours i wasn't able to sleep, there were times where reading or a while would actually help me sleep too.
- I vaguely remember wanting to lobby to change things on Beforus similarly to how I did on AlterniaTimeline Memories
- I remember finding a history book on a rebellion that happened years ago, with mentions of a "rebeller" who was a tealblood like i was, the book was written in such a way to try to put those who rebelled in a bad light, but i wanted to know more about them.
- i found a pile of books hidden away in a dusty corner shelf of the bookhive that turned out to be accounts and journals from people who were around during the rebellion. there were only a few, each seemingly written by different trolls, and all of them very old. i took them to study, for a while keeping to the library, but as i got deeper into finding out what happened, i took the books with me and moved my studies elsewhere.
- i remember going into an old clocktower, thinking it would be a place to study, and i ended up exploring the place. i broke an old lock off a wooden door that lead my to the insides of the clock itself, and, looking around, there was a crawlspace behind it all.
- i attempted to crawl into the crawlspace, only to realise there was a hole with a ladder leading downward, i stopped myself before i fell and my glasses flew off my face and into the depths. i crawled down to find them and they were cracked.
- the hole in question became my new study area, i don't think i knew it at the time but i'm pretty sure it was old catacombs built by trolls involved in the rebellion, with the entrance hidden in the clock tower
- i remember going down there one day, only to find a group of trolls whispering to each other in the place i hid the books. i saw one of them flipping through them, and remember them asking quietly how they could have ended up there, i assume they left the books in the bookhive where i found them. i stayed hidden and listened for a while, i don't know if i ever let the group know i was there. even if i did, i didn't join them.
#TW : minor mention of death
Sburb Timeline
Quadrants
♡ ??? ??? ??? ♡
♢ Bronya, probably ♢
♤ ??? ??? ??? ♤General Information
- I was a Knight of Heart, and did go godtier at some point
- i'm pretty sure our session was glitched/corrupted, and that it failed
- ardata was my client player and she was the worst client player literally ever
- bronya was my server player and we got along p well
- I was not originally planned to be in the session I joined, I somehow weaseled my way in because I somehow knew I had to be there or that something bad would happen to me/others if I wasn't a part of the session
- others in the session included: tagora, tegiri, tyzias, tirona, bronya, lynera, ardata, mallek (this list is incomplete)
- strangely, lynera didn't actually intend to join the game, but she ended up in the medium with bronya due to them living together and the game counted her as another player with a class/aspect, but she didn't have her own land
- it was originally only a session between a group of tealbloods, but several others ended up joining in (including me)
- ardata may have been a witch of hope or rage
- tagora may have been a mind player instead of space, but i'm not completely sure
- i didn't have a hive or anything, i just kinda consolidated what little i had in a hollow tree or kept it on my person
- i actually attempted to steal a laptop in order to play the game, but i was caught, and the troll whose laptop it was decided to trade with me for it. i think they were a caste higher than me and therefore could easily just get another or whatever so they didn't really care
- my sprite wasn't prototyped before entering the medium
- i ended up having to use a stick as a weapon upon entering the medium because i traded away the weapons i had on my person for the laptop
- I was very good at reading others' emotions, along with messing with them, I remember being able to touch someone and immediately be able to see their innermost self, I think my presence tended to have quite an affect on people as well
- I died, I remember the moment in the dream bubbles that I realised I was dead, I was in a familiar building, and I remember feeling upset before I looked in a mirror in front of me to see my eyes were empty and white.
- i died due to ardata betraying the rest of us, she destroyed bronya's quest bed, myself, her, and one other all died in the end (all three of us were god tier by this point)
- lynera got godtier as well
#TW : general unpleasantness, slavery maybe, minor mentions of death, needles
Bloodswap Timeline (Yellowblood)
Quadrants
♡ Kuprum Maxlol ♡
♢ ??? ??? ??? ♢
♤ Aquiun Violetblood ♤General Information
- My sign was Gemlo
- my lusus was a squirrel, but like, a psionic squirrel
- I remember becoming a helmsman for some seadweller's ship. They were violet, about the same shade as Eridan, I think.
- his sign may have been Aquiun
- we (myself and the seadweller) may have become kismeses, at some point, it probably wasn't a very healthy relationship but god did i hate him a lotGemnius Troll
- I remember another yellowblood with the sign Gemnius, i'm relatively sure this was actually kuprum maxlol
- we were in mandatory schoolfeeding together before we became helmsmen, i thought he was a deplorable asshole and tried to avoid him but he eventually one day changed demeanor due to his moirail being culled for her voidrot
- we didn't really talk much prior to becoming helmsmen
- I remember, despite us being unable to talk face to face, we became fast friends through our shared fate. i think we became moirails or matesprits, to whatever degree we could in our predicament
- The ship they were in was one of a small fleet led by the seadweller whose ship I was in, so they never had to stray far, this was what allowed us to communicate as much as we did
- we found a way to keep our conversations hidden despite most everything we did or thought being recorded by the ships' mainframes.
- i figured out how to tap into technology using my psionics. basically i could touch something like a husktop or whatever else and be able to tap into its systems and read the information stored there.Helmsman related stuff
- we were all connected on a telepathic wavelength that was basically due to the ships having bioware capable of magnifying our individual abilities, this of course allowed us to communicate between ships for navigation, this allowed whole fleets to better stay in range of each other- we still only had limited range of being able to hear each other
- the bioware was also capable of recording our every thought, intended as a way for the navigation to be tracked, but also often used to make sure the helmsmen were still in check
- it was very rare for helmsmen to be in quadrants together, and even if they were they weren't open about it even among other helmsmen; this was heavily considered a distraction from our work and so we tended to hide it from each other to avoid being ratted on by the less generous of our numbers
- it was a bit more common for helmsmen to be in quadrants with the seadwellers who owned the ships they were piloting, or sometimes other highblooded members of the ships' crews; though these weren't always... the healthiest relationships, the intention was mostly for keeping our bloodline of strong psionics alive for the future
- being hooked into the mainframe of a ship allowed you to basically see every part of it, essentially disconnecting most of your sensory awareness from your physical body; it often felt like you were the ship after a while, which could have arguably been partially true due to the amount of things on it that fed off the energy of the helmsman piloting it. this was generally very disorienting at first and often felt like a constant, inescapable sensory overload, but we were basically forced to get used to it
- it was still possible to get occasional glimpses of whatever was happening through your physical eyes, but it was usually only for a split second; otherwise you'd have to look at yourself in the helmsblock through the "ship's eyes" so to speak, which... felt almost like some kind of out of body experience
- being disconnected from the bioware of a ship feels like coming out of a dream and being met with someone stabbing a million needles into your body at onceTimeline Memories
- the last words I managed to actually say out loud when I was being hooked into the ship's mainframe was "fuck off", and I think it was directed at the seadweller whose ship I was in
General Information
- My name was, indeed, still Mituna CaptorTimeline Memories
pre-signless
- I have a vague memory of watching one of the signless' sermons. I think it was before I decided to travel with them. I just remember watching him and just feeling enamored for him right there. Like I barely knew him at the time but I could feel a truth to his words and I just immediately wanted to follow him.with the signless
- I remember braiding the Disciple's hair. She was having trouble doing so by herself. I think I might've learned how to do this at some point from the Dolorosa.post-signless
- i remember forcing myself to take on the ship i was installed into (the Battleship Condescension) as a form of identity, i think this was common among helmsmen but i did it as a means of attempting to forget who i was before then, to force myself to cast away the memories of everything i'd lost before ending up there. it worked, but only sometimes. i still had moments i'd falter and remember and it was always the worst.
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